In the past, i thought that it doesn't make much of a difference. But why is it , after hearing her experiences , i guess i've missed out more that i knew. I don't need to you be all so awesome or perfect , but i just want to know you care, that it matters to you , that i matter to you. Is it so hard , just to do something? You don't know what she has been through , and all i can do is envy her , that one day it would happen to me . He's there for her always, carrying her things when she's tired , having heart to heart talks when she's troubled , heliping her in any ways he can , sending her home to her doorstep, giving her goodbye kisses. But i really doubt that. You say you're trying , that you care, but sometimes i doubt you so so much . like said "actions speak louder than words". I just want you to love me , to give me the basic care and love . I don't need you going to the extreme. What happened to when you'll say sweet stuff which will make my day . what happen to the way you cared for me. now , its just plain nothing. i broke your heart once , and i don't want to do it again . but i really can't take it much longer. i will bear this as long as i can. you don't know what i have to go through. you won't get it , you'll never get it. how foolish was i to think that you did when we patched. what happened to the promises we've made? i guess it ain't easy learning from mistakes is it? we're supppose to be closer , yet we keep drifting .one day you'll be a stranger to me. i hope you'll say something to me after seeing this. i need a sign , of what you want. whether you want to continue staying together , promising something will be different , or do you want us to end once and for all. & i'm still believing that you're trying , hoping that it really is true.